The Truth About Maya's Story

I know it may seem to some like Riley, Lucas and Farkle and maybe even Auggie, that I am always upset, hurt and looking for attention, wanting someone to ask me what is wrong, treat me better than I deserve. Riley said I am pretending to be hurt from Lucas's attack on me, like I am limping because I want to, that I like being in pain or something...The truth is, I really don't. I don't enjoy having to limp around all day, I don't enjoy being slapped to death, I don't want to have something against everyone. I don't like having something on Lucas, telling everyone how much he bruised me. I don't at all like this. It may seem like that, but it isn't true. I don't like getting revenge, I don't feel great when I find something to hold against anyone. All I wanted, the reason I always felt the need to tell everyone when they betrayed me, the reason I was down all the time, hanging off Sarah like some basaud. The real reason is, I just want them to care about me. Like Ender said in "Ender's Game" the class novel my Grade 7 English class is studying, his older brother hates him because Ender is better than him and he finally gets the chance to beat him and he said "I don't want to beat him, I just want him to love me" and I get that. I don't like attacking people, I don't like stabbing them in the back, I do because they attack me and I won't go down like this. I just want my friends to love me, like Ender. I don't like this pain, I never wanted to limp around, reminding everyone what Lucas did to me. I just want to have friends who care. Who could never hurt me, who would love me no matter what. It's all I wanted. I don't like war, I'm not Hitler. That is never what I wanted, I don't like attacking, but I have to. Well, that is the truth. That is the only truth. Check back on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart again soon.