What up, blogger! Okay, so here on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, I have reached a total of 1996 pageviews, but that isn't the point of this post. I have reached 99 posts on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart! 99 posts, which means we are one post away from 100! And now it is like The 99 Posts of Maya Hart! Classic...Well, anyway. Today there is school. That was so off topic. So, back on topic, The 99 Problems of Maya Hart have officially reached 99 posts and the next thing we're going for is 2000 pageviews. I am currently at 1996 pageviews, so it shouldn't be too hard, right? Something's telling me, it'll be so soon that the 100th post will be reaching 2000 pageviews. I mean, were 4 pageviews away, come on. So, that is great news! The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, 99 posts and going for 2000 pageviews!
That is the celebration picture post thing for The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, and 99 posts. There were no images of 99 blog posts, so I had to just get that. So, yeah.
And that is for the 2000 pageviews celebration. I am sure by this moment, we have 2000 pageviews. I will go check, be back in a second....
(5 seconds later...)
Still workin' on it...We're at 1997. So, that may be a disappointment, we can't get 4 pageviews in half an hour, but still. Maybe right now is just the wrong time for pageviews. Maybe they'll be more after school. We'll see, still this is a 2000 pageview and 99 post celebration. Be sure to check out more from The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, come back soon!
Okay, so guess what!? This is the thing I'd never thought I'd be hearing in a million years! This is a miracle, somebody alert the media because this is a true miracle! So, today in gym class, 7H was doing the beep test, (That's Farkle and Riley's class) and for a boy a very very low mark is 2.4 and that is a long fail. Like 2.6 is a pass and you know what Farkle got!? 1.4!! Yes, he is an epic failure! I got a higher mark than he did! Huzzah!! I finally win! I got a higher mark than Farkle Minkus in school! Boom! My goal will be to beat 1.4 to prove my point because something is telling me that if 7H did the beep test today, so will we. Sad face :( Oh, well, I get to beat Farkle so it's not half bad! Okay, it still is, but gym is the only subject I am getting above a C on. So, that is totally awesome! Farkle Minkus failed a test!! Oh my gosh, I call it a win-win situation! This is a true miracle, the happiness continues. Not for long, because next is Science 7 where I have to present my stupid structure project. Lucas already presented this morning and aced it. He got an A and I am not looking forward to seeing my usual D- which is bound to happen ya know. Well, that is an honestly true miracle! God makes miracles people! Happy ending for all!!
So, I am the Wikia Navigating Queen! Honestly, people shoud praise me because I know how to get pictures from wikia! It's way easier than I thought! All you have to do is click "See full size" and you can copy the image URL and save it everything! It's sooo easy! I will prove it. I will post every one of the pictures from Girl Meets World of Terror, right here. Proof!
Boom! Proof, I am the official Wikia Navigating Queen! So, call me crazy, but I am praising myself right now! Yeah, go me! I am officially happy. I updated every one of my website profile pictures and backgrounds! Whoo! Yeah, go me!
Okay, so I have some terrifying news. For one, the next new episode, Girl Meets World of Terror is the Halloween episode. Me and Riley sleepover at my house and Farkle scares the living life out of us. Then poor Auggie is terrified something's under his bed and school is just....creepy. Oddly, creepy. It's really awesome, check out the promo!
So, that'll be a pretty cool episode. I feel like it is airing just after Girl Meets Flaws, because Girl Meets Flaws is October 24th and 7 days later is October 30th, which makes sense. So, that's gonna be scary and awesome!
Also, the next terrifying thing is...well Muffins which is the next airing episode and I am going bonkers! Then it's Girl Meets Flaws, which is possibly terrifying, I don't know for sure. Then it's muffins which...duh! That's gonna haunt me for the rest of my life...I still haven't aten a single muffin since I found out. So, yeah. Girl Meets Flaws is terrifying for Riley and maybe possibly me. I don't know. So, let's hope Girl Meets Flaws is totally terrible for Riley and amazingly awesome for me. So, I'm not getting my hopes up, I never do. So, that is terrifying and hopefully it doesn't end in the way it shouldn't. So that's all the terrorizing news for today, come back soon and keep up with The 99 Problems of Maya Hart! Oh, wait! I forgot to show you why Girl Meets Flaws is so terrible for Riley! Okay, you'll understand after watching this here clip:
Check that out boys and girls and I'm sure it'll come to your amusement. It came to mine, that's for sure. So, NOW come back soon and keep up with The 99 Problems of Maya Hart!
So, what's new? Well, not much is what I'd call "new" but as usual, I may have messed up. And I may or may not have just lost everything I stand for. I lost my best friend. They may not make posts about you, but if you miss them, it's worth your time. I had a best friend. I was 3-6 years old and her name was Dacey. I don't remember any fights I had with her. Although, the last time I saw her I was 7 years old. Right before she moved away to Canada for God's sake. I remember it was winter and I went to visit her and her little sister, Daiya. We went sledding on a hill in their backyard. Then when we got inside, me and Dacey went into her bedroom. Oddly, I remember everything about it. It had a poster that said "If you don't love horses, you won't like Heaven" and it had a horse on it. She was like obsessed with horses, seriously. I remember that was the last time I saw her. She moved away and never called me again. Then I met Riley a year before Dacey moved to Canada. Riley was like my replacement Dacey. Riley was there longer than Dacey was. I miss Dacey somtimes when I believe I'm not worth Riley's time and she doesn't wanna be with me. I miss Riley, my best friend.
I had no idea she'd be so important to me when she walked into the 1st Grade class and I stared at her and thought "Just another classmate" I miss her being my best friend. BFF only has one meaning. Best Friends Forever:
BEST: The most important thing
FRIENDS: Someone that is there for you
FOREVER: There is no ending to our friendship
That's what it stands for. Best Friends Forever. If only it were true...I miss her being there for me and I miss us being us. What happened to that? We never fought like this, I feel like we aren't friends anymore. Well, real friends come back to you in any kind of fight. No fight is too strong for best friends, but unless they never really were. I don't know where I am anymore with her, but it is what it is. I guess I'll figure it out adventually.
Okay, so today Girl Meets 1961 aired and it was rather...way worse than I thought. I nearly bursted into tears and almost barfed when I watched it. "I come from a long line of Clutterbuckets" is something that I said in the end of the episode. I am all Hart, trust me. So, it disgusted me because I was more attracted towards Lucas than Riley was!! Even when it wasn't at our grandparents!! Which is the worst part! I mean, the 60's man!! Their nuts! Inside and out!! It hurts a person oh so very badly to figure out this kinda of material! What is going to happen because right after this, muffins airs and it is where me and Lucas are together and Riley and Farkle are. Then followed by Girl Meets Flaws which is where Riley and Farkle get....okay, I can't even believe this. The episodes are following us! Well, duh, we're us! History has nothing to do with us. Is what I thought until I forgot I said it 5 minutes later. History has nothing to do with us and then I come from a long line of Clutterbuckets. That is how "history has nothing to do with us" turned out. Smart of me to make that line. Yikes! Well, 1961 was worse than I thought. "Maya may have a crush on Lucas" is a lie wikia is making up. I mean come on, really, think about it! Well anyway, Girl Meets 1961 A.K.A Girl Meets 19x the barf. So, yeah, here are some pictures from Girl Meets 1961.
Well, that is 1961. My grandmother is May Clutterbucket and I come from a long line of Clutterbuckets. That's right. But I'm all Hart. Well, that is my review of Girl Meets 1961 and thanks for viewing The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, check back soon!
Okay, so lately as in the past 2 weeks, I've only been listening to my last two songs in my playlist straight. Avril Lavigne, I'm With You and I Will Be. That is ALL I have been listening to in a while. Now I am starting to listen to my normal playlist songs. Like Listen To Your Heart, I listened to at least twice today. Right now I am listening to Gwen Stefani, Sweet Escape. I listened to Demi Lovato, This is Me and Rihanna, Take a Bow once each as well. I listened to Artists Against Bullying, True Colors as well. I've also listened to Megan Nicole, Never Have I Ever like maybe once or twice today as well. I just got done Gwen Stefani, now I am listening to This Innocence by Avril Lavigne. I may have also listened to Jessie J, but I'm not 100% sure if I did or not. Weird, right? Well, my arm is in deep pain right now from writing and I feel like I am going do die of poor arm support in a few seconds, so time to say thanks for viewing The 99 Problems of Maya Hart and be sure to check back soon!
Okay, so as you can see this post must be really good news if it's gone to the 98 Problems of Maya Hart. I'm not changing my blog title, it's just a good title I find for this post. I actually haven't gone down any problems. Actually, I basically went up one because the reason this is such a good post is because something else is wrong. So, if something else wasn't wrong, this would be more wrong. I know that's confusing, but you'll get it in a second. I realized one episode I am soooo excited for! Girl Meets Flaws! Yup, I love that episode now! I know Farkle gets bullied, which is the not-so-great part of this episode, the good part is Riley and Farkle! Yeah, moments crazy here! You don't believe me? View it for yourself at girlmeetsworld.wikia.com and go to all photo's on this wikia and you'll see what I'm talking about. I now only have 98 problems and it feels good. 1 down 98 to go, whoo! That sounded better in my head....Well, thanks for viewing the TOTALLY AWESOME BLOG POST, and be sure to check back soon on The 99 Porblems of Maya Hart!
Aww! Let's give a round of applause for the happy couple! The absolute 100% most stupidly annoying kid in school and Farkle! That's Girl Meets Flaws, Good Luck Riley! (Not)
Yeah, this may not be that episode, but it's muffins. I saw it and I had to post it. You know me, posting things online that I'm not supposed to be posting. Classic...
So, today was very interesting at school. First of all, in Religion, Lucas and me presented "Little Vanessa" to the class. If you don't know what Little Vanessa is, it is a children's book me and Lucas wrote for our religion project. Then in someone else's project, they used Riley's Matthew West song for one of their examples. Plus in Health class we did the same project Riley was talking about with the sexual abuse thing. Well, we got the handout and were doing it next class. A.K.A Monday. Oh and here's the big thing. Last choir practice, me and Riley ditched like it was none of our business. The co-leader of the choir, kicked us out. Then today the actual leader with the power, let us back in. We didn't want to go, oh no we didn't. Then she said "Come on, Maya! You have a solo, let's go" and I finally got up and went. Then when we got there, it was not only Me, Riley, and the leaders anymore. It was a choir of like 20 people! So now they join!? So, then as soon as we got there, the sassy co-leader says "What are they doing here?!" in her little sassy voice to the whole choir. So, she here convinced the actual leader to drop us from our solo's and because NOBODY ELSE could do our solos, except us, the teachers did them. So, yeah. The co-leader was so hostile that she didn't give us the solos being the only students who could do them, she gave them to the last-minute-teachers. Riley didn't even get to sing. She had to just sit there and watch everyone else sing. I know me and Riley were fighting, but I needed her to TAKE THE CHOIR DOWN. So, I told her that they were expecting us to show up, so to punish them from taking our solos, we just won't show up. Riley agreed and we went off to class. Then when the announcements buzzed "Anyone performing in the choir, please make your way down to the gym at this time, thank you" and I said out loud to the whole class "Not me!" and everyone was like, I could see on their faces they were thinking "Okay??" So, then when the litugry came, on the way there I explained to my friend me and Riley's plan. Then when the choir went on, I said to her "I should be up there right now" and when they started "singing" I said "They need me" and she agreed. Then I showed her all the solos and when mine came, the councillor started singing it. Then I said "The next girl who sings is in the blue" pointing to the girl in the blue. Then after she started singing, I said "Riley's solo is next" and then when Riley's solo came, it was hilarious. It all went silent for the first minute. Then the co-leader started singing Riley's solo late. I bet they were thinkin' about her when nobody sang her solo. So, that was funny. I kept telling my friend about how they are gonna suck terribly on the song "All the People Said Amen" and when the started singing, we started laughing our heads off. They sang "All the people said amen" and I said "when the songs done" and then when they said it again I said "Not yet" and then she was laughing. Then when it was over, I said "And NOW the people said amen" Then the principal said that there was misbehaviour during the liturgy, she was lookin' at me and my friend the whole time. She said she could point fingers, but she's not going to, but she didn't say she wouldn't look directly at who did it (Me and my friend). Then on the way back to class, we were singing "All the people shoot the choir, whoa ohh oh!" and it was funny. So, then after that we told Riley that we were the misbehave in the litugry and she was like "That was you guys?!" and we were like "Uh huh!" laughing. So, that is what happened with the dang choir today. Oh and on my late slip from coming back to lunch, I wrote "Stupid choir held me back" for my reason. I almost got in trouble but the lady signing my late slip, could barely read my handwriting, so I was lucky. Well, that's it for now, stay tuned and keep up with The 99 Problems of Maya Hart!
Yes, I know that is a very long title. But it's true. I may or may not have just lost everything I stand for. What do I stand for? Friendship. I stand for having friends and knowing you have someone to lean on. By posting my previous post "The Unforgivable Pattern" I may have just lost everything I stand for. I posted that and I meant it. I really did, but it may have cost me me dignity. And everything else. That's just freaking great. Well, actually. I lost everything EXCEPT my diginty. I didn't accept an apology from someone who hurt me 9 million times over. If I would have, I would be disrespecting myself. Letting people treat you like a worthless piece of nothing, is disrespecting yourself and your diginty. I lost my best friend. I lost my shoulder to cry on. I lost the person to talk to. I lost my daily routine. I lost what happens in our show. I lost the only person I talk to. I lost the only friend I ever really had. I lost my support. I lost the person who told me I'm not okay. I lost that all. That big paragraph. But I didn't lose the most important thing, my dignity. My right not to give into peer presure and not forgive those who do not deserve it. I still have self-respect (when not looking at how I think of myself) and I still have dignity and I still have a choice. I still have the oppertunity to be-friend someone who won't do this to me. I still have that. What really matters in life. God knows and he puts people in my life who are meant to be there. I shouldn't be afraid to let go because if Riley's really meant to be in my life, God won't let her go. And if she isn't, then I shouldn't make a sweat trying to win her over. That is how it works and I may or may not have lost everything I stand for. I am going to find out.
Okay, so now I realized that "I don't wanna sound desperate" and I don't want to let people take advantage of me. If you mess up with me, you messed up and there is no taking it back. "I didn't mean it" isn't good enough. People can say ANYTHING in the word that they want. I'm the most famous person in the world, I've got the talent of every living person in this world. There I just said something. Is that true? Duh, it's not! I mean, I wish but it's not! Papa-Tom isn't telling me to take my friendship back with Riley. He's telling me it's time to let go. She's been rude to me with no regrets for the past month. I am not taking it anymore. I am not letting her take advantage of me. She will probably think "It doesn't matter if I go against Maya because she's desperate for friendship and I can get her back anytime" well, actually YOU CAN'T! You mess with me once, it's a showdown. You hurt me once, sure okay. It's one fight, maybe a misunderstanding. Twice, okay? Weird, but I guess everyone deserves a second chance. 3+ times, it's over. Yeah, I put a + at the end because it has been way more than that! So, 3+ times, no chance sister. It's over! Don't think this is what I've been wanting all along (like her wanting to end this friendship for the past week). I don't want this at all. I want her to be my best friend again. I want us to act like best friends again. I want us to do what we used to do. It's all I've ever wanted. But I am not letting her think that every fight we have, she can get me back again because she can't and she won't. I am not being taken advantage of by her. I will tell Mr. and Mrs. Matthews what is going on and why I am doing this to their daughter. I won't avoid Auggie as well, or their family. It's her. Just plain her. Nothing else. This could take a while for her to earn this friendship back. If she doesn't care, well then have at'er because I make no effort to be friends with the person who thinks they have it all sooo good, that they can stab the ones who don't have it all sooo good in the back. I don't have much. She has everything I don't. She can't use that against me anymore. I am not being affected by her imtimdating me with what she has because she's normal and I don't. Okay, she's not normal, she's weird. But she has the normal life of a girl and I don't and she ain't using that against me. I hate doing this probably more than she hates reading this, but I can't let someone do that to me. I already have people screwing up my life, I don't need anyone else thanks. So, I hate to say this, but she's not my best friend anymore and won't be for quite some time or effort. That is that. I hate saying this, I was going to end this post at "...effort." and I just don't know if I should publish it. I'm going to. I'm publishing this so everyone can see it. Okay, okay I'm doing it! It's done. It has been published.
Okay, so today starting after lunch wasn't half bad, I guess. I had English. We had an unexpected test which was on The Landlady Story A.K.A the serial killer story. It was the easiest thing ever! Then after I was done, I thought of everything that happened at lunch and I could feel that I was about to cry. I asked to go to the bathroom, I was allowed so I went. Then I went into the big stall of the bathroom and started quietly crying, no sound. Tears just rushed down my face, thinking of the things Riley said about me. Like the following...
1. My mom was right about me
2. Riley hates me
3. "Okay!" when I said to end our friendship
4. Our friendship means nothing to her
5. Wrote a nice blog post about me (to be continued)
6. (continuing) To just replace it with a nasty one
7. Saying for the past week she's wanted to end out friendship
8. Kids were fidgting with online whales in the library.
Okay, forget that last one, it happened. Leave it at that. So, that is what Riley did to me. Hurtful, yes. You think I am innocent? Awww! That's so cute. Of course I'm not!! I started this. I know it sounds parcially weird that I am saying how wrong I am, but I had a very good cause. I was just threatning our friendship, to see if she really cared about it as much as I did. How did that end? Well check this out...
Me: And one other thing?
Riley: What?
Me: Me and you? This isn't gonna work
Riley: Okay!
Me: Your not my best friend anymore. I've found better friends in the garbage can
Riley: Oh, good because I have wanted to end this for the past week.
Me: .....
So, then I went to the library. I was writing my previous blog post "Am I Crazy?!" I don't know what happened to me. Just all the thoughts of what Riley did just...her voice saying it all was in my head, repeating like I was a worthless child. Satan and Riley clearly teamed up! So, I was sitting there looking at what I had wrote so far and at minutes, I was about to cry. I gripped the inside of my palms of my hands and kept saying to myself "No, no, no. Don't cry in the library where people I know are!" and I tried so hard. Then after lunch, I went to English and that story thing happened. After I finished my test, I went to the bathroom and started crying. Then after that, I went back when I finished crying and caught up on my other subjects. Then I forget what subject was after that. It isn't an important part of this anyway. So, the it was History. Mr. Matthews talked and talked about politics for what seemed like hours! Then we had to go to the Post Secondary Fair in the middle of History and Mr. Matthews dismissed us. When me and my friend went down there, her other friend went and caught up with us. She was about to cry. We took her to the bathroom and asked her what was wrong. She said her and her best friend and her were planning to do this fair together all day, but when she saw her other friend and took off on her for her other friend. So, then all 3 of us went around doing the fair together. They are like best friends and they said it's like they share a brain. I was their weird tag-along that didn't have a brain at all. "She's my best friend!" my friend cried. "I hate my best friend" I said. "Then she's not your best friend" she replied. "No, no she's not" I said following them to the next station. The fair was really fun. Then at the end, her friend went to her last class and me and her stuck around the closing fair just to get outta math class. We just made excuses as why not to go to math class. Then we ended up going and doing a test too. It was a good day at the fair, but in English, oh my gosh, I hated it. So, that was my day after Riley completely hurt me. So, thanks for reading and check back soon here at The 99 Problems of Maya Hart!
Okay, so I still cannot believe what I just did. I don't know why I don't regret it as much as I thought. I spent my whole History Class ignoring Mr. Matthews and learning how to accpet this because it won't work no other way. So, but I also decided to make other alterations. I cannot be Riley's best friend anymore. She wrote a nice blog post about me, and then replaced it with a nasty one. So, I cannot even be her friend anymore. I will hangout with Lucas, Auggie and Farkle. Her and I just can't be friends anymore. Papa-Tom said that I am making a wise choice by ending my long-term friendship with Riley. So, that is the smart thing to do. It is the last thing I want to do. Really...but I felt like I was bluffing about that. I still wanted her to be my friend and I wanted it to be how she expected it to be when she wrote her previous nice post about me (she deleted and replaced with a worse one) and I wanted it to be just like that. It's not...My plan was to accept what she wants and just threaten our friendship, but not actually mean it. Then after I gave her what she wanted, and then I told her that I don't wanna be her friend anymore, she said "Okay!" like she was happy. She said she didn't wanna be my friend for the past week. She admitted that. But she didn't know that ending our friendship, I didn't mean any of that. I'm not crazy!! Well, that answers the question of the title. I didn't mean it...now I'm all alone, sitting here in this library, gripping my own hand and trying to prevent myself from crying right in the middle of the John Quincy Adams Middle School library. I didn't mean it...I didn't, I thought that me bluffing and threatning to end it, it would upset her. I guess our friendship meant nearly nothing compared to how much it did to me. Well, that may be what Papa-Tom was trying to tell me. He was right...speaking of him, I need to check my follow up to my follow up to my follow up on my letter to him. Thanks for listening to me, I'm sorry I wasted your time. Come back soon and check up on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart...if you want, which you won't...but whatever that means.
Well, I have news that should be good, but is isn't. Riley and me are now being civil and we started talking yesterday at school again. Seems like good news, right? Well it's not. I would rather be fighting with her. Now, it's like she's just an aquantince that I go to school with. Even people in my class associate with me more and actually treats me like their friend, more than Riley does. I miss when it was the way it should be. Best friends are supposed to be there for each other. Friends...not aquantinces. I have enough of those. Lots of people from my class are my aquantinces, I do not need anymore of those, trust me. I just want my best friend back, with exceptions, I just miss having someone to laugh with, someone I can talk to and someone who loves me. I watch Girl Meets World episodes and clips and it only makes matters worse. But I have a right to because those are my episodes and that isn't going anywhere anytime soon. I just pray to God that it'll be okay. It really will...I can only hope, but I'm not one of those dreamers, otherwise I'm full of hope. I can maybe hope for a chance, but no hoping highly. I just miss the old her...the new one sucks.
Thank you for your time. I'm happy you took the time to listen to what I have to say. I know it may not be what anyone wants to hear, but it's something I have to say and if you read this far, you care. Maybe your thinking "No, I don't" but I feel like this is unescessary to be here, reading the worthless words from a worthless girl, but your reading this, meaning...You could be my new best friend! Okay, okay...I'm sorry, I was just hoping for myself. I am glad that I am here on this Earth and I will stop at nothing to make things right. I have me, myself and I and that is all I need to continue on my own. Thanks for reading and keep up with me on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart!
Okay, so I have a new song, Avril Lavigne, I Will Be. I dedicated it to me and the situation I am in right now. Because I have lost my best friend and she doesn't care, I understand the meaning of this song. I will post the lyrics and highlight the parks that represent me and this situation.
There's nothing I could say to you Nothing I could ever do to make you see What you mean to me All the pain, the tears I cried Still you never said goodbye And now I know how far you'd go
I know I let you down But it's not like that now This time I'll never let you go
I will be all that you want And get myself together 'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring But now I see, honestly You're the one thing I got right The only one I let inside Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I'll turn it all around 'Cause I will never let you go
I will be all that you want And get myself together 'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
'Cause without you I can't sleep I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah and without you, I don't know what I'd do I could never ever live a day without you Here with me, do you see, you're all I need?
And I will be all that you want And get myself together 'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life
(My life)
I'll be with you forever
(Forever)
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
(Okay) I will be all that you want
(I'll be) And get myself together
(Get myself together)
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
So, as you can see, ALOT of that song represents me right now. More than I thought. Well, thanks for viewing and I appreciate your understanding. Come back soon and check up on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart! I'll be right here waiting!
Well, I've decided that if Riley is going to say all those cruel things to me and actually have gutt to say them and not apologize without thinking I should, well than maybe I should find a new best friend who would never say that. Sure, they have no history and I don't know them that well....yet. I could always get to know someone. I didn't know Riley as soon as I met her, but the progressed as time went by. So, I could always find someone at 12 years old and then know them as my best friend through Middle School and High School and even after that. You have to let time pass to give a history before you offend someone for having none. I mean, I'm not saying I will actually just find some random person from our show or something. I mean, there's a girl in my grade and gym class, but she already has a best friend who is in our gym class as well. He is a boy, but gender doesn't matter at all. So, there's also my friend from my class, but she already has history, which is the problem. I already know her as one thing and we can't change our friendship anymore, it's too late. We already know each other as a certain thing. We used to not even like each other in Grade 6. Well, I guess I don't have to even know them yet. Maybe I need to search for someone new. Someone I have never met. I guess maybe I could go and meet new people when I am outside of school, like people I meet at the park or just around or something. There are many ways to meet someone. So, I guess maybe I'll do that. I guess I have to try, I mean I probably want someone who cares about me as much as I care about them and someone who won't threaten our friendship or even think once about saying that they don't want to be my friend. I want someone who I know I can go to no matter what and I won't be afraid they are annoyed or offended. I just want someone like that....like how I used to have. I miss elementary school, middle school has caused so much problems. Well, I guess I can't give up and I can find a new best friend. It may take time, but I'll find her...adventually. But I will! I just gotta keep my eyes open and focus. That's gonna be hard for me, to focus and all, but for my best friend, I will do anything.
So, I am like ready to burst into tears right now. Riley said she doesn't want to be my friend anymore and she said she never needed me. That hurt me because I always felt that she needed me almost as much as I need her...apparently not. So, I am all alone now. I am all alone and I am going to have to keep this progression up by myself. I have to do everything myself and hold up me and everything I need. I may just be able to pull this off, I don't know. On the bright side, I've been alone my whole life and I am used to it. Everyone dropping everything, leaves open and available rights. I won't do anything until I can tell this is confirmed, but when it is 100% possitively confirmed, by tomorrow, I will then make a move, but until then I am keeping the tiny bit of hope I have and taking the long shot that this may work out. I'm not that cruel, but I'm not that hopeful. I won't attack anyone (and what they will USED to have maybe) until I know for sure 100% that everything is open and available, when I really have a right to. But until then, I'm not that cruel. But I'm not 100% hopeful that this will actually resolve itself. I mean, I have hope until tomorrow, but by then it's all gone. My hope for today will still be there, but tomorrow it's all gone and that's when I am going to learn to take this all in for myself and learn to carry my own load and take care of everything on my own. But until tomorrow, I won't do anything wrong. I will at least live by that policy. I may lose everything, but I may not have to if I can take matters into my own hands. But it may backfire on me and I'll be upset for eternity, but I'll take the chances. I still have hope right now, it will be another like 16 hours until it's tomorrow and I actually decide what's gonna happen. So, I guess for now, my computer is where I'll stay, not doing anything wrong just yet if I'm even gonna do anything wrong at all. That is it for now, come back soon and view The 99 Problems of Maya Hart.
Hey, Blogger! I'm back for another day and today I am going to give you a blast from the past! I remember when I was little like 8-11 years old. It was not the perfect childhood, but at least it was one. So, I will show you some pictures of me from when I was little, that I haven't posted. You may have seen them, but probably not.
Yeah, that's it basically. Those were all I had left, but it's still something, no? Yes. Well, I gotta go and do something more meaningful now. Not that this isn't, just I have to go and watch episode clips. Because I can. So come back soon to check up on The 99 Problems of Maya Hart! Thanks for viewing, every pageview counts!
Okay, so guess what!? I finally got my ElderWisdomCircle letter back! Yessss!! Okay, so I got Papa-Tom and he seems really nice. He said that I should have more confidence in myself because Riley isn't a better person than me, which she is. (She's not a good person no more, but she's better than I am). He did question if I was lesbien! He said "Boyfriends/girlfriends" and for a second I thought maybe it was a unisex name or something. Maya. Not unisex! I was accused of being lesbien possibly! Oh, well the adive was good!
Okay, so I almost forgot to post something. I have a new video on YouTube called "Maya Hart - Time Cannot Erase" and it is about me and it actually has scenes. The song is the piano version of My Immortal. So, that's the best I could find for that video. But it was really good, I will show you it and all my other videos as well. Starting from oldest to newest.
1. Maya Hart - Listen to Your Heart (Short)
2. Maya Hart - Listen To Your Heart (Extended)
3. Maya Hart - Time Cannot Erase *New*
Those are all my YouTube videos! Be sure to check out my channel! Thanks and keep up with The 99 Problems of Maya Hart!
Okay, so I was just highly offended by what people call Farkle, Lucas and Riley. Yeah, that's right. Lucas is right beside me and is offended by my literature recognitioned speech, momentarily. So, we ditched choir because there are not enough people left in it and I didn't want to be the only one. Dignity comes before teachers here at John Quincy Adams. So, we went to the library and Farkle, Lucas and Riley got their computers and I got mine. The minute I touched it, it said "Shutting Down..." with a loading sign beside it. Great! So I asked everyone if they'd give theirs to me and they all said no. I begged them and Riley said she would...if! There is an if. So, only if I dressed up like a clown and went to choir. So, that's offensive. Then finally I told Lucas to bud over and now I am sharing with him. So, yeah that is great. For half this time, I was begging for a computer. Offensive.
Okay, so I know by the title of this post, it may look like I did something wrong. Wrong! What this is about is I actually didn't do something wrong. That is what this is about. Have you ever been accused of an act of crime you did not commit? Well, that is what I am here to tell you about today. Something I didn't do, that I am being accused of. So, have you ever heard of online theft? Hackers? People who don't hack into their best friend's account because they are not that cruel and couldn't care less about blog pages? Well, that last one is exactly me. It's a thing, you know. It's a thing made up by me 5 seconds ago, but it's still a thing. So, what happened was Riley's blog pages were messed up yesterday and all in the wrong order or something like that. Suddenly, this morning one of her blog pages go missing about I don't know what. So, because I know her old password which she changed before I got the chance to even go into hers today, she accuses me of deleting her blog page. It didn't start that way you know. She kept saying "Whoever deleted it is such an idiot" and things like that and I finally said "You accusin' me of something?" and she said she wasn't. After a long moment of silence, she did start accusing me of something. That. That exactly. She accused me of logging into her account and deleting her stupid blog page. Okay, there are sooo many things wrong with that thought. For starters, I would never hurt my best friend like that. Second of all, I couldn't care less about that blog page of hers. Third of all, does she not know anything about what I do? If I really hacked her account, it would be for something more important, like some secret she could be keeping from me. And also, I would certainly not do anything to get myself caught. Like Gabe Duncan once said "If I really cheated, he wouldn't have known about it!" and that is exactly what I think. If I really hacked her account she would not have known about it! Why would I change anything on there, if she's clearly gonna notice sometime?! If I really did anything like that, she would not have known about it! I know how Gabe feels! Well, still. There are so many defenses I have against that. Facts. Complete utterly true, cold hard facts. I didn't do it and I certainly could not care less one little bit about that stupid blog page of hers. So, she can accuse me all she wants of deleting her blog page, the truth always comes out, so adventually she will see the light. I am innocent....for once....still innocent!
So, I had to have a shower about half an hour ago. I was and still am very upset about what happened earlier and I am devistated. I showed with a little dim light on because it seemed more like the mood. I turned on the water and suddenly my eyes just filled up with tears. I tried to smile to hold them in, but I can't even do that anymore. So, I just started crying. I got in the shower and began doing all the normal things I do in the shower. I know you do not want to know what I do in the shower, so let's skip that. I just kept crying and crying and it got harder and harder. I felt broken down and hopeless. The bath was like a tub of tears! I was crying until I was done putting static-free hair spray in my hair after getting out and drying off and putting on lotion. So, then I grabbed Oatmeal Bear and hugged him tightly and said "Your my best friend" it reminded me of the girl me and Lucas saw at the swimming pool yesterday. She was at least 15 years old and she carried a doll with her. Me, Riley and Farkle were laughing but Lucas told us to not make fun of her, there is clearly a reason she has that doll. She doesn't have it for no reason, maybe she had it because it had special value or memory or somethin' like that. So, I understand that. Oatmeal Bear walked through every step of life with me since I was 2 years old and he has never betrayed me once. I know, it's a teddy bear, but I hug it sometimes and remember that he was in that crib with me when I was 3 and I looked out that window. He was there with me when I first wrote "Mommy, don't you love me?" when I was 5 years old. He was with me when my dad stopped sending me stuff and I held him every night. It doesn't matter how old you are, it doesn't matter what it is, some people have different things that mean things to them. It's no reason to make fun of a person. I love Oatmeal Bear, being the only one who has never betrayed me, not for my mother, not for my father, not for Riley, not for anyone. I know it's a teddy bear and cannot talk or even make it's own choices, but it's mine, he's been there through everything. I cried all shower time tonight and I am devistated that he's all I have. Devistated...
Okay, so there is one thing that I truly realized. 2 things, but only one that is permitted here. I just realized that maybe I was being a bit hostile and uptight and I should've just taken Riley's "dumb" comment as a joke. I guess I was wrong, I shouldn't be being rediculous. Why bring up the past? Get over it because it's done and not coming back to haunt me. I mean, I should get over the fact that she said that. I knew it was a joke minutes later and that's when I should've let this go.
Dear, Riley
I'm sorry for overreacting. I was wrong to be so hostile. The past is the past, something that we are not re-living nor repeating. I'm sorry for being hostile and not accepting that you were kidding. I try my best to be smart, I've wanted to be smart ever since 5th Grade and I guess when I was told that I was dumb, rather than smart, it hurt me. So I took it over the top. I shouldn't have done that. When you said you were kidding, I should've accepted that. I understand if you don't want to be my friend anymore, but please at least accept my apology and believe I am really truly sorry. I really am. Sometimes I just need to realize I am wrong and own up to what I've done. Nobody's perfect. The dumb joke is in the past, which we are never re-living or trying to re-live. I mean, why would we? We aren't bringing this up anymore because it is done. Never again. I will try and be better. Thanks for being my best friend and understand I am the one going through struggles in life and I am the one who can cry to you when I need to. I can. I really can. I'm sorry.
So, I had a value to every friendship I have. So, I had a minimum, I had a maximum. I had a maximum in most situations. One a scale from 1-10, I valued me and Farkle's friendship, on about a 3/10. Offensive to Farkle? Probably. Lucas's I valued about 3/10 as well. So, Riley's I valued 120/10. Which was a mistake. I realize that is not mathematically possible, but to me, it's where I was headed. Smart of me? Not really. Am I dumb? NOT REALLY! Because I am not dumb, things that don't live are dumb, I live, I'M NOT DUMB!! So, I made a mistake. The value of the friendships I should have made are these:
Farkle: 3/10
Lucas: 8/10
Riley: 2/10
So, yeah I know Farkle hasn't changed and that should be sad for him, but he knows I never mean it that I actually value his friendship above a 3/10. So, Lucas is actually very trustworthy. I never knew, but he actually tried to help me out before, even in the episodes. In Episode 7/The August 15th Episode/Girl Meet's Maya's Mother, Farkle asked me what my painting was about, and why I painted what I painted and Lucas covered his head, knowing it was a sensitive subject and he knew I didn't want to talk about it and Farkle saying such a thing hurt me, as of why I didn't reply to Farkle's question in that episode. Yesterday at the swimming pool, Lucas was also sensitive to the fact that I couldn't swim because I wasn't enrolled in swimming lessons by my parents and everyone else was on at least Swimmer 6. So, we floated on a double-tube and he was careful not to tip me off and helped me up when I almost fell off. He tried to teach me how to swim when Riley and Farkle took off on us. He showed me how to tred water, but everytime I tried, I just sank down, but because I could touch the ground, I was fine. So, then because I am way shorter than Lucas, he took me a bit deeper, where on he could touch and told me to try it there. I was worried about that. "Are you trying to dround me!?" I asked before he let me get down. "No, no. Trust me, I've got you. Can you trust me?" he asked. I hated to say it, but I could. "Ugh! Yes!" I said disappointed. He just laughed at me and I started laughing too. I tried not to, but I did. "Ready?" he asked. "No" I replied hooking onto him. "Okay, here we go, remember what I showed you" he said letting go of me. I tried so hard to stay up, but I just couldn't do it. I'm not over-weighted, I can carry my own weight, but I just couldn't do it. I started sinking and almost choking until Lucas pulled me out and back up against him. "I-I'm sorry, I thought you would be able to do it if you couldn't touch the floor. Are you alright?" he asked me. I nodded my head, breathing heavily. He carried me over to the edge of the pool, near the hot tub and the thunder waterslide. "You're okay?" he asked me again. "Yeah" I said breathing hardly. He sat down beside me and patted my head. "Glad your okay!" he said in his country accent. "Stop it!" I laughed playfully hitting his arm. We sat there playfully attacking each other for 5 minutes and then we realized there was this little 6-year-old brunette girl watching us. We looked at each other creeped out but smiling. "Sorry!" he said to her getting up and running into the hot tub. "So sorry!" I added following after him. We sat on the stairs of the hot tub talking and then we saw Riley and Farkle walk by. So, that is that.
So, these are some quotes that represent Riley and me, especially the second one.
That's it for this post. It took literally an hour to write, so please enjoy it and if you didn't...than barf on you. So, have fun being whatever it is you are and come back soon to keep up with The 99 Problems of Maya Hart. I will always be here.
So, probably like 8-9 days ago, I submitted an advice to ElderWisdomCircle. I have been checking daily for my reply ever since I sent it. But nothing ever came back. They never reply to me. I sent it days ago and Show-Off McBraggy Pants (Riley) got hers back today, which made me think maybe mine did. Of course, it didn't! Do they hate me or something!? What did I ever do!? Did they realize who I was and how I am decide not to answer? This is offensive, very offensive. I knew I was bad, but when I need help, I didn't know I was bad enough to ignore! Well, I just might need to get help somewhere else, if they don't answer in the next 2 days. For sure, if it is past 10 days (They said they'd answer in 1-10 days) than I am going somewhere else!
So, we just got back from the park. When I say we, I mean Farkle, Lucas, Me and Riley. We all went to the park and on the way, we picked up Lucas. Farkle was already with us because once again, he was sitting at the window. So, I told Lucas that I had to talk to him about something Riley and Farkle were blabbin' about on the way to Lucas's house. When we got there, I started explaining to Lucas and then I inturupted myself and said "Do you think they can hear us?" and he laughed. "We can't hear a thing" Riley said. So, I went on and explained to Lucas what I heard. Then Riley said "You know we can hear you, I just knew it would work because Maya's dumb" that offended me pretty hard because I know I'm not smart and as seen in Girl Meets World, I really want to be. So, I took that to offense and when I was hurt by it, Riley was mad at me for being upset. Lucas I could see was watching me glare at Farkle much to his dismay. Lucas saw how upset I was and stayed by my side and made sure that I wasn't going to do anything. We got home safely and I told Lucas some odd stories on the way, after falling off my scooter by trying to do one-handed tricks. Lucas took good care of me, better friend than Riley was being. So, yeah this is Round 2 of the rollercoaster of forbidden friendships...wish me luck!
Today, I watched the promo for (cough*blah*cough) Girl Meets Crazy Hat and I was as usual, paralyzed. So, then I watched the episode clip for it and it made me kinda upset. It was the scene where me and Riley are at the subway and she gets taken away by a dumpster man. So, the woman with a crazy hat was at the subway and...Okay, why don't I just save myself some typing finger blisters and show you the video of it...
So, yeah did you see what the lady kept saying? That me and Riley have a great friendship. Well, if she saw how we are now, she wouldn't think that way anymore. I miss being able to hear people say that without doubting it in my head. What do I do? What can I do? Maybe I'll just have to ask ElderWisdomCircle. Should I talk to her about it? I'll have to ask ElderWisdomCircle....
Okay, so I have absolutely terrifying and absolutely soul crushing and nightmare crazy news!! I am FREAKING right now!!! I just cannot get this out, I am freaking out and I am typing at 120 words a minute and it is totally utterly insanely creepy and unbelievable, this must be a dream because I am totally freaking out right now, someone please tell me this isn't true because I am totally freaking!!! Okay, my head is spinning 9x faster than usual!! How is it that I am coming up with such clever word play!? Okay, I need a breif second to calm down.......Okay, I think I am ready to tell you what is going on. Or not!! Oh my gosh this is freaking rediculous!!! One more second...Ahhhh!!!!!! Someone tell me this isn't really happening!!! Okay, I am good now. So, as we all know, Girl Meets 1961 is now being commercialed for on Family Channel. It aired last night on Disney Channel. So, you may be wondering what episode is next for Disney Channel, what episode is being commercialed for on Disney Channel. Well, if may come to you inspiration to know that the episode that is airing, let's just say, I thought didn't air until mid-Season 2. But no, it doesn't air in July 2015, it airs in September 2014. Help me. So, I bet your thinking "Just tell me the episode already!!" and I understand that, so I am going to tell you. So, the episode that is airing on Disney Channel right now is....Girl Meets Crazy Hat. Normal, right? Well, Girl Meets Crazy Hat is also Girl Meets Maya's Death because that episode is the muffin episode!!! Ahhhh!!! This is exactly how I found out...
Me: What episode commercial is on Disney right now?
Riley: Girl Meets Crazy Hat
Me: Oh, really? I've always wanted to see that episode.
(I thought it was about me wearing crazy hats, but that's only the sub-plot)
I went to YouTube and went to watch the commercial. A video said, "Girl Meets Crazy Hat Promo" and I was happy it was there. I clicked it and this is what it said:
Commercial: On an all new Girl Meets World
Mr. Matthews: We are going to be splitting up into 2 businesses
Me (out of commercial): Wait...
Commercial: (shows muffin scene)
Me (out of commercial): Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Riley: What?! Me: I-I...Ahhhh!!!
Riley What!!?
Me: Girl Meets Crazy Hat is...Muffins!!!
Riley: What!?
So, that is how I found out, paralyizingly. I am crushed because in exactly 2 weeks, I will have seen Muffins. Kill...me....now....I just might explode on next Friday. Help me, God!! So here, is the promo for Girl Meets Crazy Hat and check it out yourselves and explode if you may.
Season 1 Episode 10, also known as Season 1 episode KILL ME NOW!! I am freaking out! Did you not just see that commercial!! It's mufins, it really is!! Help me, Lord because I can't do this, knowing muffins is being played on Disney Channel right now!!! Help me please, I can't do this!! I am freaking right now!!! Okay, help me with this, I can do it with deep breaths and taking my mind off it...Okay...Gonna be okay......Ahhh!!!
So, tonight, Riley and me went to the saucer park. When we got there, a family was on the one saucer already, so we took the other one. A mom was laying down on the saucer, with her 3-year-old son on her stomache and the dad was standing by laughing and enjoying them. The mom was tickling the little boy and he was laughing so hard, he couldn't even breathe. He looked over at me a couple times, with his smiling face, laughing, likely hoping I would laugh too, but I didn't. Not to disappoint the child. I just couldn't. He was laughing and his mom was laughing and they were having so much fun. At 3 years old, I've never seen a happier kid. While at 3 years old, he was laughing, I was crying. He was playing, I was hiding. He was talking, I could barely talk. His parents love him and he knows that. They held onto him like he was all they had to lose, and they definently didn't want that. I was his age, and I cried myself to sleep. He probably laughs himself to sleep. He's probably thrown up of laughing so hard, I've only thrown up at that age of not eating for 5 hours. It's not normal for a little kid to not eat that long. Well, I just felt devistated and alone, watching them have so much fun. That will never be me, I look at people and things and know it's something I'll never have...
Hey, Blogger! I know this is sudden and unexpected, but I have decided to make a "Childstarlets Overload (Part 3)" because Girl Meets Smackle just aired and they have legible Childstarlets pictures, so I am doing a sudden Part 3 to the original two. So, please enjoy that, sorry if I didn't give any input on this, but it is too late to put out a release date and I might as well just do this without putting one out, so enjoy!
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So, that is it for "Childstarlets Overload (Part 3)" and thanks for viewing, The 99 Problems of Maya Hart, come back soon and check out what is new, because everday, there's always something new!
